It was never fake!

You entered my life when things were not going well. You held my hand and showed me the way. Like every good friend you were there for me. You fell in love with me and so did I. My past was difficult and dint let me move on. Everytime I looked back and my past would hit me hard. I wanted to love you. I wanted to make you mine. Every moment spend you was the moment I treasured. But inside I knew that this was not right. Neither for you nor for me. Everytime I met you I could see immense love for me in your eyes. I had started to feel the same way as you did. But just couldn't express it. I used to feel miserable not to give you what you wanted when you always gave me everything before I asked. You made me feel happy, you became my courage, you did everything that would make me fall in love with you. And yes I did! I did fall in love with you. But I was just not able to let go the 6 years of my past. I would never be able to explain you what I have lost when you went away. But all I could think was you be happy always. All I wanted was not to ruin your life. And I believe what I did was the only way out. Just want to tell you this that whatever it was, it was never fake!!