Runaway!

It was purely my luck that I got to see her again after a long time…

She was in my city and in my house, unwillingly though as she had no option…
But that somehow made me happy…

We came across each other throughout the day.
I wanted to stop her and talk to her but I guess it wasn’t as easy as it looked!

As always I was working late and used to return after they have slept.. One opportunity was what I was waiting for to talk to her & to tell her that I still love her the way I always did..

To my luck next day morning I met her on the breakfast table alone… I threw a casual “hi” to her with slight hesitation followed by “Good Morning”!

And there was silence till we finished our breakfast…

As she was walking away with the plates I turned and said “I’m Sorry”!

Feeling disgusted she kept walking… She kept the plates in the kitchen sink and came back and sat in front of me and replied “Im Engaged”… “Im Engaged to a person whom I don’t love, but he loves me a lot… And he is not a coward like you who did not turn up on his Engagement”. These fake words thrown at someone without concern don’t matter at all.

I knew it was a pile up… She was fuming and to be honest I was feeling disgusted too… And this time more importantly at me…!

She continued,” You were the only priced possession I had for these many years, at least you could have done is told me if you were not ready for this.. We would have talked through it”!

I was scared & more concerned about the fact that getting engaged would have put an added responsibility on me and I was at such a situation in my career that I had an option of choosing you or my career.. Where I chose my career! And yes more importantly I was not ready for it!

And what about me? Did you even bother once to get back to me.? We both invested 8 long years in this relationship when we made this decision of getting engaged and you just flushed it in few seconds!!?

You were important to me..!! You were the reason why im still not engaged..!! I always believed that you would still come back to me after all this!! And besides I dint have a choice!

You always have a choice & it’s important what choice you choose to make!
And I have made my choice, and cowards don’t fit in that!

Care to say......

I need a break!!

What break are you talking about here?

Is it the break from the lovely time we have always had together or the rough times that we come across sometimes?
How can you just forget the time you were hurt and I was there besides you to take care of you? The time when I needed you and your one message would do wonders for me.
Being with each other always was the most important thing. No Demands no Expectations. Being true to each other, being support to each other, taking care of each other was the only thing we cared about. And now you say that you need a break!

Make me feel special!!

What special thing are you talking about?

You are and have always been the only special person in my life. Taking you out for dinner saving some amount of my every day pocket money just to see that smile on your face!! I was not earning but never ever I let it hurt us in anyway. I fought with my family every day to be with you. You were special to me in every way and every day.
From writing on the walls of your building, taking a walk with you under the moonlight to the bike rides was special for me always. Never ever being special meant being materialistic then why now?
I treated you like a princess without expecting you to treat me back as a prince. Loved you in every way possible! I always walked that extra mile to reach out to you. Never complained, neither questioned you for anything then what is it that extra you want me to do to make you feel special?

You are an Asshole!!

What makes me an asshole?

Does being an asshole mean staying away from girls in college who are after me just because I’m in a relationship? Or does giving you that helping hand if you want it or asking for it when I require it makes me an asshole?
Being there for you always, giving you a shoulder to cry makes me an asshole? Or is it just because I have been so loyal to you that you never got an opportunity to dump me makes me an asshole?
Or because I was not able to give you all the materialistic pleasure as I’m not a son of a rich dad? Or being honest, open or sometimes rude when frustrated makes me an asshole?

All these three sentences were said to me so easily without even having a slightest feeling of despair. Which unfortunately makes me believe the time which we spent together was fake? But my heart does not want to believe it. I still believe that something has gone wrong, I don’t want to know what but ill wait… ill wait until you come and tell me what it was that made you say all those things to me of which half the things I couldn’t even mention as they have pierced through my heart and made me bleed from within.
“And yes you have been successful in making me cry”