It was never fake!

You entered my life when things were not going well. You held my hand and showed me the way. Like every good friend you were there for me. You fell in love with me and so did I. My past was difficult and dint let me move on. Everytime I looked back and my past would hit me hard. I wanted to love you. I wanted to make you mine. Every moment spend you was the moment I treasured. But inside I knew that this was not right. Neither for you nor for me. Everytime I met you I could see immense love for me in your eyes. I had started to feel the same way as you did. But just couldn't express it. I used to feel miserable not to give you what you wanted when you always gave me everything before I asked. You made me feel happy, you became my courage, you did everything that would make me fall in love with you. And yes I did! I did fall in love with you. But I was just not able to let go the 6 years of my past. I would never be able to explain you what I have lost when you went away. But all I could think was you be happy always. All I wanted was not to ruin your life. And I believe what I did was the only way out. Just want to tell you this that whatever it was, it was never fake!!

The Black Shirt..

It was the most romantic night of all times,
This time he made her wear the black shirt of his, instead of the white as always..
Only the black shirt.. :D
She was sleeping besides him,
He squeezed himself inside the shirt, opening up a few buttons..
he started to caress her back gently.. slowly moved his hand up to play with her hair..
And then gently moved up and kissed her on the neck.. further moving up to bite her ear..
He missed the mark on purpose & kissed her right besides her lips..
Slowly moved his hand down to hold her onto her waist...
Pinched her slightly on her butt... ;)
And moved his hands further down onto her legs.. holding her thighs, he pulled her close and slowly pulled her onto him...
Unbuttoned the remaining ones and felt her throughout the night by making love to her as passionately as he ever could...
As the night passed he made a coffee for her.. made her sit in his lap.. cuddling up and wrapped around with a bed sheet they had the coffee together..
Finishing the coffee he whispered in her ears,"I Love U".
Took her to the bed again, played with her for sometime and cuddled to sleep in her arms for the night..

I Believe...

A Birth Certificate shows that we were born
A Death Certificate shows that we died
Pictures show that we lived!

Have a seat . Relax . . . And read this slowly..

I Believe...
Just because two people argue,
It doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue,
It doesn't mean they do love each other.

I Believe...
We don't have to change friends if
We understand that friends change.

I Believe..
No matter how good a friend is,
They're going to hurt you every once in a while and You must forgive them for that.

I Believe...
True friendship continues to grow, even over The longest distance..
The same goes for true love.

I Believe..
You can do something in an instant
That will give you heartache for life.

I Believe...
That it's taking me a long time
To become the person I want to be.

I Believe...
You should always leave loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe...
You can keep going long after you think you can't.

I Believe...
We are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe...
Either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe...
Money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I Believe...
My best friend and I, can do anything, or Nothing and have the best time.

I Believe...
Sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, Will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe...
Maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had And what you've learned from them and Less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I Believe..
It isn't always enough, to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe....
No matter how badly your heart is broken The world doesn't stop for your grief.

I Believe...
Our background and circumstances may have Influenced who we are, but.
We are responsible for who we become.

I Believe...
Two people can look at the same
Thing and see something totally different.

I Believe...
Your life can be changed in a matter of
Hours by people who don't even know you.

I Believe...
Even when you think you have no more to give, When a friend cries out to you - You will find the strength to help.

I Believe...
Credentials on the wall do not make you a Decent human being.

Courtesy:
Kshama Chapkhanwala

Living the Dream!!

He was in his mother’s womb when he first went to see a cricket match on the field.
Sachivalaya gymkhana was the club for which his father used to play, then one of the biggest clubs in Bombay.
As he started growing up his father started seeing potential in him of being like him.. a boy who would one day go and make his father proud by playing cricket for the state.
But as he grew things started getting different and difficult!
It was not as easy to get into a state team as it was few years back.
The stage was different the competition was much higher than what it used to be.
As he got older and got into his own senses, his father told him how important it was for him if he goes on to play for the state.
It would be one of the proudest days that his father could ever see.
Since then he started to give his 100% on whatever he did on the field.
But the load of his father’s expectations, and his needs did not go well hand in hand.
He failed miserably in trying to fulfill his father’s dreams.
After schooling he got into the most well known college for cricket giving up his wish of becoming an engineer.
And to his disappointment was not even selected in the squad.
He had the talent, technique & temperament but was using it in a wrong way.
Just as the right time was about to come he decided to give up on his father’s dreams and promised himself that he will keep playing cricket but not to play for the anyone but for himself.
He knew that he had the same blood running in his body that his father had, so he made sure of using his technique and talent in the right way.
Joined the least promising college in sports and promised himself that one day will make sure of winning against the same team who did not give him the opportunity to explore his talent.
To his fortune, that college used to practice on the same ground where he had first seen a cricket match and his father play from his mothers womb.
His dream was fulfilled..
He became a better cricketer over the years… realized how important it was for him to enjoy the cricket rather than playing with a load in back of his head.
One day he even reached a step below playing for the state… was called in the probable’s for the state team selection.
That was the day he had a word with his father telling him how much he loves playing cricket the way he wants to and not to show the world what he can do.
He became a popular name in the cricketing circuit. He got the respect which his father was looking for.
His talent was recognized, started playing for one of the biggest gymkhana in the city. And still does.
He scores runs at regular intervals, in good matches and against good players.
The only thing different is now he plays for himself and not for anyone else.
And is successfully living his fathers dream.

What goes around comes around!

It had been 10 yrs now that I had been with her,
As a friend, philosopher, guide.
She dint even make a single move in her life without me.
The time we spent together was special always for me
I had started to love her since the time I got to know her
It was time now I had to take the first step towards her,
And take this relationship to the next level
I was deeply in love with her.
Just wanted to tell her somehow,
Was searching for the right words and
Waiting for the right time!
I took her out for dinner one night,
Opened my heart & poured my feelings onto her
I was hoping for a positive reply as
I was the only man in her life, “I Assumed“
Her answer crushed my heart into pieces
She said, she loves an other man
About which she has not confessed yet
She was at a place where I was few moments back
She wanted to tell him, but was scared about the reply
Being a friend, I gave her the courage to say it to him
It was about time that I was going to lose her
She agreed and said, she will do it soon!
I asked her if even he liked her.
She nodded and said I believe so.
Two days passed,
I had lost contact with her
Assuming she was somewhat upset over my proposal
Suddenly received a call, it was her on the other side
Low on voice and weeping,
She said he doesn’t love me.
Career is his priority and no one else.
I dint know to be happy or to be sad.
In all this a thought just hit me,
What goes around comes around!

Black and white stripes

He entered the room, came and sat besides me,
Whats up? i asked.
Nothing much! he replied.
Everything was the same,
It was the same time we regularly used to meet each other at the so called "adda" of ours.
Timings were the same only the place had changed.
But the moments we shared were getting better.
We both were in pain, which we could not take any more,
so decided to end the reason for the same!
We both were betrayed in love, love that was never ours!
The adda was the place where everything was decided.
The weapon was the same and the idea was to kill.
Two different places, meetings were fixed,
i ended it here and he ended it there!
Rush of blood made us do the wrong thing!
Realized it later when everything was finished.
Still happy in our own way, as we had nothing to lose.
We surrendered ourselves, and let the destiny rule!
Now is the time we wait for the hammer to bang!
And in no time we will be there to be hanged!
Looking at each other we smile for the last!
And say good bye!
We move into the black and white stripes with our head held high!!

Runaway!

It was purely my luck that I got to see her again after a long time…

She was in my city and in my house, unwillingly though as she had no option…
But that somehow made me happy…

We came across each other throughout the day.
I wanted to stop her and talk to her but I guess it wasn’t as easy as it looked!

As always I was working late and used to return after they have slept.. One opportunity was what I was waiting for to talk to her & to tell her that I still love her the way I always did..

To my luck next day morning I met her on the breakfast table alone… I threw a casual “hi” to her with slight hesitation followed by “Good Morning”!

And there was silence till we finished our breakfast…

As she was walking away with the plates I turned and said “I’m Sorry”!

Feeling disgusted she kept walking… She kept the plates in the kitchen sink and came back and sat in front of me and replied “Im Engaged”… “Im Engaged to a person whom I don’t love, but he loves me a lot… And he is not a coward like you who did not turn up on his Engagement”. These fake words thrown at someone without concern don’t matter at all.

I knew it was a pile up… She was fuming and to be honest I was feeling disgusted too… And this time more importantly at me…!

She continued,” You were the only priced possession I had for these many years, at least you could have done is told me if you were not ready for this.. We would have talked through it”!

I was scared & more concerned about the fact that getting engaged would have put an added responsibility on me and I was at such a situation in my career that I had an option of choosing you or my career.. Where I chose my career! And yes more importantly I was not ready for it!

And what about me? Did you even bother once to get back to me.? We both invested 8 long years in this relationship when we made this decision of getting engaged and you just flushed it in few seconds!!?

You were important to me..!! You were the reason why im still not engaged..!! I always believed that you would still come back to me after all this!! And besides I dint have a choice!

You always have a choice & it’s important what choice you choose to make!
And I have made my choice, and cowards don’t fit in that!